smooch to myself

i have a long list,
bear with me..
it's the time when i can proudly tap on my own shoulder
and say..
good job med!

- i donated blood
- and u thanked God for the opportunity to help others
- i joined the debate at the consulate
- prayed before it started
- and actually got the second place
- went to PNE for the first time
- rode the HELLavator and actually had fun
- rode the wooden coaster.. it was awsome..

me so proud and happy..
nothing can let me down.
not even my stupid feelings and assumptions

for today i have conquered my self..
for have control over my thoughts

I know I'm loved by the true love
that i should not be afraid of loosing love

it's His
not mine
You can take whatever away from me
or give whatever for me..

I am growing up more and more
from what i've been through
from everything that has happened

I'm learning and hopefully becoming better
and choosing what's best for my growth

for I am the precious daughter
whom He will never leave alone

I thank you God for letting me grow
in the most beautiful pace

I Thank You God For Everyhting

Med. I'm proud of you..


GOOD NITE J, I love youuu soo!

h e l p

Tuhan tolong aku
ini bukan aku
semua kata yang keluar hanya cerca dan amarah saja

Tuhan tolong aku
aku tak tahu mau ke mana lagi
sungguh

ketika aku harus menyimpan semua ini
sendiri saja...

bahkan orang yg paling ku andalkan
mengeluh padaku
"kamu kan yang paling kuat di antara kalian ber 3"
jadi gapapa ya ** push kamu dan crita bgini..

tidak Tuhan..
aku nggak bisa!!

lalu beban ini harus ku buang ke mana?
dan tak bisa mulut ini bicara

jadinya aku harus simpan yg ku hadapi
plus yang aku harus dengar
sendiri saja

yang tersisa dari diriku
bukan lagi aku yang dulu
yang percaya
yang kuat
yang tau bagaimana harus bersikap

yang ada hanya aku yang pecah
aku yang penuh amarah
dan tak bisa hadir di tengah yang lain

sendiri

Tuhan tolong aku